Patience Duggar only has memories of her little boy. Tonight she speaks with Angelina Salcedo after she is finally ready to speak about what happened to her son.
“I absolutely loved him! He was my pride and joy, and he was the only reason I had just to keep going,” said Duggar
She was just 17-years old when she found out she was pregnant. That was when her parents kicked her out of her house.
“I dropped out of school, I was homeless, I didn’t have a job, so DHS got involved because I didn’t have stability. They decided to place him with his father because of the financial security he would have,” said Duggar.
Her son was taken away from her and she quickly spiraled out of control turning to drugs.
“I started using after my child was placed with his father. I was homeless, I had no friends, I was in a town I didn’t know. I didn’t know any other way out but just to start using that way I had a place to sleep every night,” said Duggar.
On October 30th, 2016, she received a phone call that her son had gotten hurt and was in the hospital, while she was being treated for mental health and drug abuse.
“All I heard was that he was hurt, but he was still alive and I just wanted to go see him,” said Duggar.
Cody died just hours later on Halloween. She never made it to the hospital to see him.
“It made me feel like a failure. I had already lost him, I still had my rights the day he died, but I had already lost him. I felt like I wasn’t there for him and blamed myself for a really long time for him dying,” said Duggar.
At the time of his death, Cody was in the care of Tori Bittner. Tori was dating and living with Cody’s biological father and was arrested a few days later. Bittner admitted to shaking the baby boy. Autopsy reports showed Cody died from severe brain trauma.
“Why I just want to know why. A 7-month-old never did anything to her, couldn’t even speak. I miss having him here to hold. I miss having that love of my first son, you never get that again,” said Duggar.
Now two years later, her main focus is to follow Tori’s trial to the end, to see justice be served for her son. Bittner’s trial is scheduled for next June when Patience is due with her third child. She says that’s why it is so important to tell her son’s story now. Her and her son’s father now have three children together and plan on getting married this Summer.